And Then There Was You

As I recently scavenged my Google Drive, looking for who knows what, I found scattered writing pieces from the past few years and some of it piqued my interest once more. I liked what I was doing back there. I can see the vision. 

So this is built out of something I found anew. It sparked some emotion in me that music sparks in me and so, naturally, I created a themed playlist. I hope you enjoy them both. 

And then there was you….

You, who stole my heart before I even knew what that meant. You, who made me so scared, but so full at the same time. You, who outshined everyone in the room. You, who had so much life. 

I was so scared of you. We were young when we met. There are two categories of people I know – the people who knew me before my mom died and the people who knew me after. You knew me before. You’re one of the only people who can say that and you’ve been a tremendous help in my healing. You’ve also been the cause of deep pain, and I have been the same to you. 

You may be the one who got away. We might be that for each other. We just could never figure us out. We were never on the same page at the same time. You were larger than life and that freaked me out. There was never a dull moment, but sometimes all I wanted was peace and quiet. 

It is strange that we never could figure us out considering just how well we knew each other and how close we were. Even now, I could send you just the right message you need to hear if I focus on it and tap into your soul. We are just connected in a very deep way and it may be because of the hurt and growth we put each other through. 

One day we will be together. I can still see it. We go through life changing situations that somehow against all odds bring us back together. And we’ll be so happy and grateful and content. 

Or we both just have to live with not knowing. Not knowing what the other one ate for breakfast. Not knowing that one of us almost broke an ankle trying to make that hoop in the park. Not knowing how close that football game was because we stopped caring about each other’s teams (that’s a lie, I still check in on your teams). 

I’m not sure where I am going with this. Your love is too big for a story. Your love fills the whole night sky. I can’t fit that onto paper. 

So this is for you. You will understand.